Tuesday, November 30, 2021

Musings of motherhood

Am back to blogging after a really long break.... I don't even know if anyone is blogging anymore, with the number of insta reels and YouTube shorts... I guess many prefer videos to express their views... but I find this comfortable....

I have just begun the journey of being a parent... My kids are about 6 years old and why do I say that I have just begun the journey ... why??? 

Now that kids are growing up and forming their personalities , I am able to understand that there is so much to learn .... and unlearn. Not just about kids ... about me...

So now I will be sharing my thoughts about how much I am changing and understanding myself and the world better... If you have reached till here, well, good luck and fasten your seat belts!!

I had a long journey waiting for kids...  almost 10 years. The phase that I was waiting for ... the cuddly, cute, singing lullabies phase got over about a 2 years back... my kids were about 4 years old when we were in their nighttime routine and I was singing some lullaby (which I thought was their favorite) and my daughter told me... "Amma, please don't sing. I want to sleep."

I had a mixed reaction to that. 
1. Shock... what!!????!!!
2. Happy... that my daughter is able to tell me what she wants
3. Sad... have I been torturing this poor soul with my songs all these years???

I remember this incident as it shook my beliefs on many levels... and also, I started to observe my kids and their opinions and realized so many things which I thought were important, were not... so many things which I thought were good, were not... in fact, what is good and bad... 

More in the next blog !!! Bye for now 😁