Friday, August 16, 2013

To believe or not to believe!

Life teaches us so much!!

Ya... this one is a serious one from me...

I was brought up in a typical Tambrahm family.

Going to temple once a week and on special occasions (the list is biiiiig) So I never gave much thought to what I "believe" in.

Once I was on my own, going to temples and praying every night (applying "vibhuti") still continued.
Similar to what was taught in my school , I was taught at home (and made to believe) that those who do good will never face anything bad in life.

Then came series of mishaps. Each time I got the strength to pick me up from pieces and start anew, I fell steeper. Life was so tough... Now who else do I blame but God... So, I started avoiding everything that I used to do before. Going to temples became a once-in-a-year thing.

Last 3 weeks... Starting from July 24th... the day when my dad got a severe heart attack... were so hectic and strenuous. I had to manage lot of things and was under terrible pressure, especially when the doctor did not tell anything about appa s recovery for 4 days. (Now appa is back home, recovering)

Things started changing when I used to spend most of my day in the ICU waiting hall.
I met so many people ... people with various problems, a 5 days old kid, waiting for a heart operation, a forty year old man, who had an unsolvable heart problem, a 25 year old guy who had a major problem in brain....

I found one thing in common. Everyone was positive about God being on their side.

What made them think like this? What gave them so much belief? Why didn't they look at God as someone who gave them the problem and instead, someone who has the solution???

The more time I spent with them, the more I thought about all of this.

Here is what I understood.

I feel things are so much easier when we put the burden on someone else. Apart from positive thinking, thinking that God (or someone) is there to take care of our problems , seems to reduce the stress.

So... where am I now... Do I believe??? No idea... Just going with the flow of things... Have understood one thing though...

Life teaches us so much!!!